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Blood Makes Noise
And we can't seem to stop it.
Bob coughed and threw up blood again, steadily, starting around 2:45 p.m. Monday; there was a lot more blood elsewhere in his body, in places it wasn't supposed to be. his stomach was cramping, his heart rate soared, he got pale as paper again, he couldn't stop sweating, and yet his blood pressure held until just past 8 p.m. Then it started to drop. They ordered more red blood cell packs. He couldn't sleep, he couldn't rest in one position, the blood kept coming out, they've stopped any food and any water by mouth. His ICU day nurse, Mary, should be sainted, and I think his night nurse, Ed, is probably pretty damned good, too, but they couldn't make him feel better, and I couldn't. All I could do was wipe his mouth and his head, and hold his hand. He can hardly talk, he's so weak. And he's scared. So am I.

He's having another procedure tonight - should be starting about now, actually - with the bland umbrella name "interventional radiology." As I understand, it's pushing the same fluid they injected into his stomach via the endoscopy two days ago, to try to get the bleeding to stop. This time, they'll inject it  through arteries in his groin, up into his stomach. I'm at home with a migraine, had to come home around 9 p.m. but I've told them to call me as soon as the procedure is over.

Blood reeks.

ETA:  I had to call the ICU just now (1:17 a.m.) to find out that they decided not to do the procedure tonight. Instead they pushed three more packs of red cells. The doctor on shift said he called earlier but didn't want to leave a message because he didn't want to risk leaving a message at the wrong number. Uh-huh. No calls while I was home; Bob called me shortly after I got off the phone with the doctor. He says the man did call me. Ten minutes after I left. All he had to do was leave a message saying "please call the ICU" He didn't have to leave state fucking secrets on the damned phone. And, while Bob sounds stronger over the phone - thank you red blood cells - they've confirmed that they aren't going to give him much of anything to help him get to sleep. Some reasonable reasons, but he's still exhausted, and how the hell can he even begin to heal without sleep?

Fuck,

Comments

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livii
Oct. 5th, 2010 04:33 am (UTC)
I haven't had a chance to comment on your entries, but wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you guys and hoping things go well. I'm so sorry. :(
kaffyr
Oct. 5th, 2010 04:35 am (UTC)
Thanks. I'm sure things will get better, but today was hard.
time_converges
Oct. 5th, 2010 04:41 am (UTC)
Oh, I'm so sorry - I hope they can figure out what's going on and get the bleeding to stop. Take care of yourself, and get some rest. Sending hugs and prayers.
kaffyr
Oct. 5th, 2010 04:49 am (UTC)
Thanks.
tardis_stowaway
Oct. 5th, 2010 05:19 am (UTC)
Oh geez, scary. I'll hold the two of you in my thoughts and prayers.

Go medical science!
kaffyr
Oct. 5th, 2010 05:21 am (UTC)
Go, indeed ... thanks for the thoughts, too.
penguin2
Oct. 5th, 2010 05:50 am (UTC)
:-(

Mammals are so damned breakable...
kaffyr
Oct. 5th, 2010 05:52 am (UTC)
God, yes.
kerravonsen
Oct. 5th, 2010 11:53 pm (UTC)
I dunno, how many cars are still running after 70 years? Mammals are amazing creatures.
sallymn
Oct. 5th, 2010 05:53 am (UTC)
Oh god, that must be so terrible, and terrifying, for you both... I wish their was more I could do but send you best wishes and hopes and hugs...
kaffyr
Oct. 5th, 2010 06:00 am (UTC)
Never underestimate the power of good wishes, hopes and hugs.
gerisullivan
Oct. 5th, 2010 08:24 am (UTC)
Hugs, hugs, hugs, hugs, hugs, hugs, hugs, and hugs ad infinitum, each one matched with good wishes, hopes, comfort, and love.
lydy
Oct. 5th, 2010 06:03 am (UTC)
My best wishes are with you.
mack_the_spoon
Oct. 5th, 2010 06:08 am (UTC)
I'm so, so sorry. Continuing to pray.
namarie24
Oct. 5th, 2010 06:12 am (UTC)
Oh, man. I will reiterate that my thoughts and prayers are with you.
fmsv
Oct. 5th, 2010 06:12 am (UTC)
I'm still thinking of you guys and sending thoughts of good health. I hope this gets dealt with successfully soon.
cosmiccoz
Oct. 5th, 2010 06:40 am (UTC)
I deeply hope and pray whatever procedure is decided on will work. I'm horrified and nasuated for your sake. I hope these Doctors know exactly what their doing. I've had family who've been misdiagnosed and have been through failed treatments.

I'm sending some determined energy your way. Healing and strength.

I just realized I capitalized—oh, I'll leave it.
st_aurafina
Oct. 5th, 2010 08:01 am (UTC)
Thinking of you both right now, and sending you good energy whenever I'm awake. (So when everyone around you is sleeping, I'll have the midnight shift of sending the good vibes your way.)
(Anonymous)
Oct. 5th, 2010 08:59 am (UTC)
You are both in my thoughts. Sending you both all the strength and good wishes that I have. If there is anything I can do to lighten the worrying load please let me know.
-MegsP.
lsanderson
Oct. 5th, 2010 09:25 am (UTC)
Best
Best wishes.
jrsz
Oct. 5th, 2010 09:57 am (UTC)
Oh, gosh, I hope that you're able to get some rest through all of this, and my thoughts are with you that the doctors and nurses can come through quickly and Bob will get better soon. Keep strong there.
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ljgeoff
Oct. 5th, 2010 11:28 am (UTC)
*hugs* -- thinking of you.
earlgreytea68
Oct. 5th, 2010 11:39 am (UTC)
Oh, darling, I am continuing to send you so many hugs, thoughts, and prayers.

Please let me know if there's anything else I can do.
filkerdave
Oct. 5th, 2010 12:53 pm (UTC)
Thinking of you
ladymercury_10
Oct. 5th, 2010 02:06 pm (UTC)
That's terrible. I'm so sorry. Still sending prayers.
maruad
Oct. 5th, 2010 02:29 pm (UTC)
My thoughts are with you and your family.
markiv1111
Oct. 5th, 2010 02:44 pm (UTC)
Bob
This sounds awful (I believe Bob is currently sicker than I have ever been), and I am pulling for both of you. I hope he gets a lot better soon.

N.
apostle_of_eris
Oct. 5th, 2010 02:53 pm (UTC)
It sure sounds like Bob doesn't need more visitors, but what assistance could YOU use? That is, within the limits of the mundanely practical.
My own scheduling is odder than usual right now, but I can certainly donate an hour or three here or there if you can take advantage of it. (I can smell that something doesn't agree with something in that sentence, but I'm sufficiently confident that it communicates.)
minnehaha
Oct. 5th, 2010 03:22 pm (UTC)
prayers and hopes and ....
...what can we do to help?

Love,

K.
dameruth
Oct. 5th, 2010 03:49 pm (UTC)
So scary and stressful; I really ache for you guys. Continuing to send my best psychic energy for what small good it can do . . .
monkey_pants7
Oct. 5th, 2010 07:32 pm (UTC)
Oh god, Kaffyr, I'm so sorry. I have been thinking of you guys over the past few days. I hope that they are able to figure out what's going on, and fix it asap --and I wish I was closer so I could help you out.

c_crockett
Oct. 5th, 2010 10:56 pm (UTC)
Hugs. I have spent way too much time in ICUs and their waiting rooms, it's tough. Hang in there. Please give my best wishes to Bob, and to Andy.
kerravonsen
Oct. 5th, 2010 11:50 pm (UTC)
hugs and prayers
mjlayman
Oct. 6th, 2010 01:46 am (UTC)
More good thoughts -- I wish I had more things to give.
bibliofile
Oct. 6th, 2010 01:57 am (UTC)
Just checking in, looking for today's news and to let you know I'm still thinking of you guys.
othermewriter
Oct. 6th, 2010 03:49 am (UTC)
I am soo very to hear about your trials. Please know your both in my prayers. I so wish that there was some magic wand to make it all better but... Hang in there. HUUUGGGGSSSSSS
azalaisdep
Oct. 6th, 2010 08:14 pm (UTC)
Oh my dear, I am so sorry. Can't do anything except think of you and Bob, and am doing that while wishing there were some magic cyber-method of doing something more practical...
elliptic_eye
Oct. 6th, 2010 11:56 pm (UTC)
Thinking of you guys. Get all the rest you can. *hugs*
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