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Dept. of Perspective

shizuko and seiji are friends
Thanks-Giving

This has been a hell of a year. Frustration, and loss, and death, woo.

So as I was driving with BB to our friends' house for Thanksgiving, I found it hard to do what I normally do on this day; be grateful for everything that I have. I was able to say, "I'm so lucky to have friends," and then I stopped dead. What else did I have to feel thankful for?

Well, that was foolish. I knew it, but I'm kind of bruised right now, and the bruising makes it hard to think or feel efficiently. And I kept thinking of all the defeats, and the losses, and the cuts and bruises ...

But luckily, I eventually remembered other things.

I really do have so much to be grateful for - my health isn't good, but it's not nearly as bad as it might be, not nearly as bad as that which so many of my friends deal with.

I have had a tough year, yes, but I was surrounded by people who loved me, supporting me through all the tough times.

There have been defeats, but there have been a few victories.

There have been losses (so much easier to say in the passive voice), but I am working on remembering that they aren't, perhaps, losses, just detours and delays.

And I kept coming round and round again to, "I have friends. I am loved. I can love in return."

And that is wonderful.

Thank you all.




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ladymercury_10
Nov. 29th, 2013 04:23 am (UTC)
Happy Thanksgiving! I'm sorry it's been such a tough year for you, and I'm glad there are people to support you and be thankful for.
kaffyr
Nov. 29th, 2013 04:25 pm (UTC)
Thanks - everyone has this kind of tough year, I suspect, and I hope I'll be there for them when it happens.

And this year wasn't all bad. Among the good things - getting to meet you!
ladymercury_10
Nov. 29th, 2013 05:08 pm (UTC)
Aww thanks, it was great to meet you too! :D
kaffyr
Nov. 30th, 2013 01:25 am (UTC)
lost_spook
Nov. 29th, 2013 06:19 pm (UTC)
Well, I'm glad you found something to think of - and I do hope that the next year will be better. ♥
kaffyr
Nov. 30th, 2013 01:26 am (UTC)
Well, I live in Chicago, and I'm a fan of the Chicago Cubs baseball team. We're used to thinking optimistically about the coming year. *g*
a_phoenixdragon
Nov. 30th, 2013 01:19 am (UTC)
Thank you, bb...I'm so glad you could find something to be thankful for!

*LOVES*
kaffyr
Nov. 30th, 2013 01:28 am (UTC)
I think we're all pretty good at recognizing what we have to be thankful for. Sometimes it's just hard to do, but eventually grace comes and finds us, and leads us back to the right conclusion.

All my love, my dear, and may your coming year be peaceful, fruitful, full of work when you want it and rest when you need it. And fiction. Loads of fiction.
a_phoenixdragon
Nov. 30th, 2013 01:42 am (UTC)
THIS...wise words from a wise and sweet woman.

Ahhh and the same to you (yus...lots and LOTS of fiction).

*HUGS*
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