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September 11

Inability to Remember, Inability to Write About Forgetfulness
     At the end of the day, I have to wonder why I put what day it was so completely out of my mind? On Wednesday, I knew what Thursday was. And I thought about it. Then I got up on Thursday, and forgot, even when I heard my favorite rock and roll radio station play the Byrds' version of Chimes of Freedom.  Later on Thursday, I remembered. I remembered. How the hell, could I have forgotten?
     I sat here for a great part of the evening, trying to figure out what it was that made me forget, what it was that dulled my feelings when I did remember. I tried to write about it.
     That didn't work.
     Everything I wrote was crap. Pompous crap. I erased every damned paragraph because they stank at explaining it to myself, much less to anyone else. Instead, I'm watching a documentary on Pete Seeger. It seems a good way to remember, and a better way to honor the people who only live in those memories.

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mizzlaurajean
Sep. 12th, 2008 01:21 pm (UTC)
I hadn't thought about it before hand. Just that morning when I pulled up Live Journal and saw the date it hit me.
kaffyr
Sep. 12th, 2008 04:16 pm (UTC)
I wonder if there are a lot of us out there who forgot?
monkey_pants7
Sep. 12th, 2008 02:49 pm (UTC)
Last year I got to work, and remembered--and then no one mentioned it all day. And I was new, and it was a job where I didn't really have friends, so I didn't say anything. And I got home and wrote a whole post about it, but ended up leaving it private because it just didn't sound right. It's hard to express things in the way that you want. Have you read Sars' piece from that day on Tomato Nation? She writes every year, trying to find Don, who was her disaster buddy that day. I go back and read that first one every year, and the update, hoping that she's found him. The stuff she wrote just after is really good too.
kaffyr
Sep. 12th, 2008 04:15 pm (UTC)
Thanks for pointing Sars' pieces out to me. I read it, and I see why you and so many others go back to read it year after year. I may do so myself.

Edited at 2008-09-12 11:36 pm (UTC)
monkey_pants7
Sep. 13th, 2008 05:41 pm (UTC)
It makes me cry every year, but it's worth it.
scottish_vixen
Sep. 12th, 2008 06:41 pm (UTC)
I did the same thing. What's worse, so did Graeme. And it's his mum's birthday. Oops.
kaffyr
Sep. 12th, 2008 11:36 pm (UTC)
As the years go by, we're going to tend to do this, but I somehow think we need (at least in the U.S.) to remember.

And Graeme needs to buy his mum a big bouquet of "forgive me" roses.
belsum
Sep. 12th, 2008 07:15 pm (UTC)
Mr. b took a different tack and wrote about WWI.
kaffyr
Sep. 12th, 2008 11:37 pm (UTC)
As the granddaughter of a World War I RAF pilot, I appreciated what he wrote.
mjlayman
Sep. 13th, 2008 01:13 am (UTC)
It would be impossible to forget here -- it's been in the news all week. They unveiled the Pentagon memorial and it looks lovely, just right. But one of my favorite memory things is Mike's 110 Stories.
kaffyr
Sep. 13th, 2008 04:05 am (UTC)
Oh god. I read it. Whatever eye makeup I had on is gone. But I'm glad you pointed me to it.
mjlayman
Sep. 13th, 2008 10:43 pm (UTC)
Yeah, pretty heart-wrenching. Each line is from a news report and he put them together not only so they made sense, but so they tell us a story from the 110 stories.
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