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Dept. of Weariness

When Brain and Body Decide to be Difficult
or: Wow, Too Much Stuff

It's not in a horrible way, mind you. My multi-day headache finally subsided, for one thing. (I'm counting that as one of my positives for today, by the way.)

But the hives have not gone away; instead, they've spread slightly; still in the single digits, but now lasting *checks* more than 24 hours.

I don't want to go to my primary care physician, because she'll just redirect me to a specialist — for hives, ffs; HMO GPs (remember that term, fellow old people?) have become so wary about being anything but medical gatekeepers, and it's incredibly frustrating. Hence my disinclination.

This is, however, the third time I've had these mysterious outbreaks, and I'm almost past the point of saying "Oh, it's just something to do with RA/Scleroderma/otherwise slightly compromised immune system la-de-da."

Gah. Caught between the desire to do the right thing and the wish not to face a doctor saying in so many words that she doesn't know and won't do more than the minimum to find out ... and I probably shouldn't say that because she's a pretty decent human being and not a horrible doctor. Augh; just frustrated. And itchy.

As for my brain ("Brain, brain and brain! What is brain?") I am trying to determine why it doesn't want to start working until about 2 p.m., and why it wants to stop doing anything except perusing DW and LJ after 7 p.m. I'm fairly certain it's not laziness, but Baptist guilt hovers in the background, making *tsk* sounds. Well, fuck be off with you, Baptist guilt! I'm too itchy to deal with you tonight!

Given the itchiness and the brain drain, I'm pleased that I managed to write a 27" feature story and put together two feature videos today. Oh, and make the bed, and wash the kitchen dishes that I don't put into the dishwasher. Yes, there are dishes that shouldn't go into the dishwasher, including our aging "Pinky and the Brain" glass beer and/or coffee stein. And FB's Dr. Who coffee travel mug. 

I also called my stepdad Rob and wished him a happy birthday; he turned 88 today. I'm glad my brother called yesterday to remind me to do so. He seems happy to hear from me these days, and our conversations over the phone seem to have gotten easier, despite his deafness. Or maybe I'm just listening better?

In the past week, I've learned that two of my childhood friends, one of them a particularly dear one and both of whom I'm still grateful to know to some small extent, lost their mothers in the last couple of weeks. It's time to get cards and try to let them know they're in my heart. 

Speaking of things Canadian, I now have my SIN! For the uninitiated, that's the Canadian version of the U.S. Social Security Number — the Social Insurance Number. In all the years I've been down in Chicago, I've not needed to use mine and, since my original SIN card was lost when my purse was stolen years and years ago, I forgot it. When we had to set up a new Canadian bank account for some proceeds of Mum's estate, they needed that number. I called the proper federal department in Bathurst, New Brunswick, and learned that my SIN had been rendered inactive by its, uhm, inactivity, but could be reactivated by my requesting an SIN confirmation letter. (Apparently they don't make new cards anymore, as of this year, I guess. Ah, well.) I had to send them my birth certificate, which I actually have; they promised to send it back. Well, bless their hearts, the lovely folks in Bathurst, did return it, along with the SIN confirmation letter, which I now have in my possession. And of course, as soon as I saw the number, I recognized it; how could I have forgotten it? Silly brain. 

Other odds and ends: FB and Emily came over last night and we watched Robots of Sherwood and Listen. My reaction to both is the same as my initial response; extreme enjoyment of the first, and considered, but definite, disappointment in the second. Apropos of the latter, I finally had a chance to respond to most of the conversations made as a result of the post I wrote after my first exposure to Listen, although I still have a couple of folks to respond to. I promise I will! It just takes me so long to put coherent thoughts together (hence the long-delayed Into the Dalek meta, which I think is just going to become an S08-thus-far meta. Yeah, that's the ticket. I planned it that way ....)

BB, bless the patient man, finally admitted that he didn't want to burn out on Who by joining me in watching episodes repeatedly, and I promised him I'd try to adjust my viewing habits. He also suggested that he could do something else while I watched a second time by myself, or with FB. I was touched that he said he wanted to watch the first time with me. I really am too obsessive. I definitely don't want to be party to his burning out on something he genuinely likes, even if he isn't ALL THE DOCTAH WHO!!! NAOW!!!! as I appear to have become. 

And finally: I really, really like Avatar: the Last Airbender, and BB and I are only through the first book of episodes. 

This entry was originally posted at http://kaffyr.dreamwidth.org/321399.html?mode=reply, where there are currently comment count unavailable comments. You can comment there or here; I watch both.


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Sep. 17th, 2014 03:01 am (UTC)
Oh, Avatar: the Last Airbender is great! I watched it for the first time a couple of years ago, and finally understand why so many of my friends were fans of the show. (And I do feel like the show gets stronger as it goes on, especially with book 2, and that's a rare and precious thing.)

Sorry to hear about the hives and other medical inconveniences... I hope they clear up quickly on their own!
Sep. 17th, 2014 02:46 pm (UTC)
I'd heard so much about A:tLA, both from f'list members and in general reading about all things fannish that I really wanted to get started on watching it. We'd tried a few years ago, and life interfered. The second time we began to watch, it really caught. Now BB and I like to catch two to three episodes every few nights, and it hasn't disappointed us at all.

(I'm guessing that your icon has something to do with someone we'll meet soon in the show. I look forward to it!)

Thanks for the happy medical wishes!
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Sep. 17th, 2014 03:20 am (UTC)
Can those without SIN be truly be called Canadian?

Sep. 17th, 2014 02:47 pm (UTC)
Heh. You're a witty man, you know that?

And yes, I can now truly recoup my Canuckness, since I am now bureaucratically laden with SIN.
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Sep. 17th, 2014 03:42 am (UTC)
Bless you, dearheart...always pulling for you!! and so proud that you keep being stellar day after day after day.

*snuggles you close*

*Sends kisses to FB and BB*
Sep. 17th, 2014 02:54 pm (UTC)
I'll send the kisses along, my dear - and, while I may not actually be that stellar, it does wonders for my self-esteem to hear it from time to time. Heh.
Sep. 17th, 2014 05:06 am (UTC)
I hope things clear up soon for you! The only thing I'd say is just make sure it's not shingles.

I am so weird with Doctor Who; I much prefer just watching it by myself. D has seen some episodes but we tend more toward watching irreverent stuff like Venture Brothers and Archer together.
Sep. 17th, 2014 03:29 pm (UTC)
The only thing I'd say is just make sure it's not shingles.

I hadn't thought about that, but I'm fairly certain the pattern of hives, and the fact that it's happened a couple of times before with exactly the same pattern, mean that it's not shingles.

BB and I tend to watch a majority of things together, although he has some anime that he watches that aren't to my taste.
Sep. 17th, 2014 05:29 am (UTC)
*hugs about the hives* that sounds... itchy, and unpleasant.

They don't make SIN cards anymore? The more you know. *hugs close to mine* I think I'd have a heart attack if it went missing with all the identity theft and such going on now.

Listen... I didn't dislike it per-say, but disappointed is probably a good description. I keep meaning to meta reaction post it, but at the same time, I don't actually want to watch it again to dig up quotes. Meanwhile, Robin's laugh from Robot has become my ring tone.

Avatar! I was only introduced to it two years ago, and I then devoured all four books as fast as I could. Such a wonderfully put together show, and it only improves season to season.
Sep. 17th, 2014 03:32 pm (UTC)
My SIN is now part of my life again, and I'm happy to know it hasn't been stolen or used by anyone else since I left Canada; it was well and truly inert as far as the government was concerned.

Meanwhile, Robin's laugh from Robot has become my ring tone.

Heh; I like that. I've got to make an icon of Robin and Twelve together.
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Sep. 17th, 2014 12:22 pm (UTC)

Second, argh, itches. I hope they get better—and I feel you about the doctor-related dilemma :/

Third—argh, brains not cooperating. But indeed, off with the Baptist guilt! You deserve a bit of a break sometimes ;) It's not like you got nothing done besides, go you!

Yay for meta! Can't wait to see that. And adjusting you and BB's watching habits sounds good, rather than risking a burn-out… ;)

Happy birthday again! I hope you have a great day ♥
Sep. 17th, 2014 03:34 pm (UTC)
Oh, thank you for the birthday wishes! My first day of being 59 seems to be a good one, although I've shortly got to be heading to my work computer.

I've lived with the Baptist guilt for years; luckily, I was born Northern Baptist, a completely different animal than the South Baptists that seem to dominate much of the white American evangelical Protestant landscape, so the guilt is a little easier to handle.

Hope your day has been going well!
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Sep. 17th, 2014 02:01 pm (UTC)
I hope whatever is making you itch can be sorted:S Your brain probably can't work properly because of the itching - don't feel guilty!
Sep. 17th, 2014 03:04 pm (UTC)
Your brain probably can't work properly because of the itching - don't feel guilty!

Heh - there are so very many reasons my brain can't work properly; itching is the least of my worries in that respect. But today the itching does seem to be abating a bit.

Hope your day is going well!
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Sep. 17th, 2014 04:13 pm (UTC)
Wanted to wish you a happy birthday!! Hope you can have a nice day. :D

The SIN card thing is pretty hilarious around here, because I am always forgetting it's a SSN here instead. I needed Billy's SSN once and messaged him to tell me his SIN. I searched my email like crazy because I was sure he had sent it to me previously. Then he was like "SIN...really? You need that?" Oh, duh. It's like there's a hole in my brain about the names!
Sep. 17th, 2014 05:23 pm (UTC)
Why thank you for the birthday wishes! I'm enjoying the sunshine, and I'm trying to be efficient about my work, which will make me happy. Being efficient is actually a present to myself; the birthday wishes I've been getting are presents from my lovely f'list members!

The funny thing about SINs is that I remember when they first came in, or at least when they first became important, back in the late 70s, when I was at my first or second job. They were seen as these weird, exotic ID things that maybe we didn't need, if I remember correctly. Heh.
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