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Dept. of Just Keep Swimming

I Got to 15 Days ...

... and then the week that truly was from hell hit me. Last night I lost the last of my spoons. I went to bed without having posted anything. 

Still, I have been better at posting this month than I've been for quite some time. And, hey, I'm getting back up on the bicycle, and posting now, amn't I? Which, when I put it that way, sounds extremely defensive, but then I've been feeling rather defensive for the past 48 or so hours. 

I'm not going to go into all the awfulness of Wednesday through today, at least not today. And certainly, my stress is ongoing, as is the difficult time at work. But tonight, my beloved took me out to our favorite sushi place, and it was so relaxing just to sit and talk with him, drink miso soup and eat chirashi and mackerel jaw, that I don't want to think about anything else.  (BB actually pointed out, when I said that, that it's the only one we go to, but that's not completely true and anyway, even if we did go out to other sushi places, this is the one I think I'd like the most.)'

It's Friday, and I am home, and I'm going to watch something enjoyable with BB, and then I'm going to go to bed and cuddle with him, put my head on his chest, and try to unknot my stomach. 


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lost_spook
Mar. 18th, 2017 08:58 am (UTC)
Aw. *leaves hugs*
kaffyr
Mar. 23rd, 2017 12:49 am (UTC)
Thank you - I gradually got better as the days progressed. The work has been hard as hell, frankly, but once I had a course of action, and once I stuck to it, I started seeing results, and stopped seeing disaster.

Oh dear. That sounds like a self-help book. My pardon!
elisi
Mar. 18th, 2017 11:12 am (UTC)
Still, I have been better at posting this month than I've been for quite some time. And, hey, I'm getting back up on the bicycle, and posting now, amn't I? Which, when I put it that way, sounds extremely defensive, but then I've been feeling rather defensive for the past 48 or so hours.
LJ should not be a place that adds to the stress.

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kaffyr
Mar. 23rd, 2017 12:50 am (UTC)
Actually, it wasn't really a bit of stress; by the time I finished the post, I was feeling just that little better.

And I love that gif; thank you!
nucleosides
Mar. 18th, 2017 01:46 pm (UTC)

*hugs* :(

kaffyr
Mar. 23rd, 2017 12:51 am (UTC)
Thanks for the hugs; they were needed almost every day since I posted this, and they've helped me get through.
eaweek
Mar. 18th, 2017 02:59 pm (UTC)
Hugs! Good to see you posting, even if only intermittently.
kaffyr
Mar. 23rd, 2017 12:56 am (UTC)
Heh; this is the most I've posted in ages, and it actually makes me quite happy.
a_phoenixdragon
Mar. 19th, 2017 01:43 am (UTC)
Bless you, darling!! Hoping some downtime will give you more spoons. Sounds like BB and sushi are helping along those lines. You deserve a treat and a break!!

And you are doing WAY better than I about communicating!! Hoping to get back to that myself soon. Very proud of you - and so, so happy to see you here more often!!

*HUGS*
kaffyr
Mar. 23rd, 2017 12:56 am (UTC)
You got back to it with a vidpost that I've got to see shortly; and I did manage to pick up a few spoons. Heh.
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