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A Productive Saturday

After feeling uncomfortably down by the end of Friday night, and after worrying about having to clean up the storage basement so early Saturday morning, I found that it worked out quite nicely. I rolled out of bed, staggered to the grocery to buy some bagels, orange and grapefruit juice for whatever laboring condo owners were going to turn up to help clean, and discovered a nice little group of them ready to go. That was a relief, since one of my worries had been that no one would show up (I was supposed to put out a pre-cleanup notice by email and forgot; that, too, made me feel down.) I did discover that yesterday was one of the days where I couldn't drink grapefruit juice, which was a shame, since I love the stuff, but by the end of the cleanup, I felt a lot better than I had going to bed Friday night. 

My mood temporarily tanked when I came into the house and found that I'd forgotten to put the lid down on my work laptop; Phillip immediately got on it, and managed to turn on a function that I couldn't turn off, and which made working on the laptop progressively more difficult. I reached the point of screaming at the computer, because doing that prevented me from actually slamming the thing into the floor. I'm not kidding. When I get furious, physical action is something that often happens, and is often the stupidest thing I could do (i.e. tossing everything out of a dresser drawer when I can't find something I want, or physically hitting a piece of machinery that's acting up. It's a serious and dangerously immature habit of which I've never quite broken myself.) Hence the screaming, which damaged nothing except, possibly, my husband's sense of calm. 

All hail, therefore, to 
[personal profile] owlboy , for answering my plaintive cry for help; he correctly ID'd my problem, and led to the brightening of my world. (And since my own laptop is still in the shop, this is even more important.) I told him he deserved a sonnet, but I didn't have the mental wherewithal to write him one. I may yet do it, although I'm not sure whether that's a threat or a promise .... This entry was originally posted at http://kaffyr.dreamwidth.org/673557.html?mode=reply, where there are currently comment count unavailable comments. You can comment there or here, but prefer to read over on DW. You can comment there using open ID if you don't have a DW account.


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Sep. 11th, 2017 05:24 am (UTC)
*hugs* Glad your mood improved and some important things got done, dear! Dealing with frustration is tough—tbh, I've had some trouble with the hitting things (I try avoid computers at such times, since they don't exactly respond well to that XD) and making various noises of dismay and wrath (isn't it good to live alone or have the TV blasting loudly?). Thank goodness for the support of friends and the understanding of husbands =P

Sep. 11th, 2017 12:15 pm (UTC)
tbh, I've had some trouble with the hitting things

Is it wrong of me to feel relief that someone else can admit to this? At least I feel a little less alone! And I'm glad we both try to avoid the practice. Heh.
Sep. 11th, 2017 01:10 pm (UTC)
No, it's totally understandable! I think it's more common than people like to admit. My mother often said she could more or less pick up on my mood depending on the noises she heard—more nervousness = handling everyday objects considerably more roughly—which always rather annoys me because I'm like "I don't actually turn into a beast, do I?!". But she actually does it too. If I may add, it's one level above turning that violence against oneself, which can actually also happen when it really gets overwhelming, so… =P
Sep. 11th, 2017 03:01 pm (UTC)
It's interesting that you mention your mother has similar habits; I feel bad, because FB picked up on my habit of "throw things when you're angry" when he was very young. Like me, he's learned to control it a lot better, but it's definitely a trait he picked up from me. BB is exceedingly patient and knows how to control himself far better than I do.
Sep. 11th, 2017 07:06 pm (UTC)
Oh yes, you're right to point that out—between similarities in character and thus in reactions and the things we pick up, there can be a lot of common points! And in good and bad ways—eh, that's only normal. We all have our flaws.
Sep. 12th, 2017 03:07 pm (UTC)
But I keep hoping I have none!
Sep. 12th, 2017 04:51 pm (UTC)
Well, you can still believe it really hard… ;)
Sep. 11th, 2017 03:10 pm (UTC)
I'm glad to hear you're feeling better and that people turned up for the cleaning project.

I completely understand the urge to scream or throw things in frustration. Back in the days of Former Dean Lady, I'm amazed I didn't destroy the office in a HulkSmash of rage. Unfortunately, a lot of that stress and anger turned inward, and my health suffered as a result--my blood pressure has come down 30 points since I stopped working for her.

I'm also glad to hear your computer is now okay. I was going to make the completely low-tech suggestion of switching it off and re-booting, but it sounds like the situation is under control.

Lastly, it's so good to see you posting again! I sometimes feel like we're the only people left on LJ. : /
Sep. 12th, 2017 03:10 pm (UTC)
I'm amazed I didn't destroy the office in a HulkSmash of rage.


I'm amazed that your blood pressure was that high without sending you to hospital! Glad that Former Dean Lady's departure staved that off.

I sometimes feel like we're the only people left on LJ. : /

I understand that. I had actually planned to move off LJ entirely and go 100 percent to Dreamwidth, but there are a few people I know here who haven't made the jump, and who I want to keep in touch with, so I'll probably stay a good while longer.
Sep. 12th, 2017 04:38 am (UTC)
I'm so glad it all worked out for you, dearheart...

Sep. 12th, 2017 03:10 pm (UTC)
Thanks, my dear. (I'm hoping things work out for you, as well!)

*many hugs back*
Sep. 13th, 2017 02:37 am (UTC)
They have so far! I'm stunned and a little O_o, but I think it's all gonna work out. :)

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