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DW Fiction: Breath

Title: Breath
Author:
[personal profile] kaffyr
Fandom: Dr. Who
Characters: Clara Oswald, Ashildr/Lady Me
Summary: The breath in her lungs was either a lie, or the truth. Clara Oswald gets some advice about life after death.
Author's Note: This was written for
[personal profile] purplecat (annariel) for the 2017 [community profile] fandom_stocking . She likes both Clara and the woman known at times as Me. It can be read as gen or F/F. The two women are potentiality personified in terms of their fates, so their futures are wide open.
Edited by: no one, but read and re-read obsessively by the author.
Disclaimer: All characters are the sole property of the BBC and their respective creators. I take no ownership or coin, but I do love them.. 


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Dept. of Once More Into the Breach

Things What I Have Done Lately

1. Had (yet another) bout of back pain. Luckily, not major spasms; unluckily, it hurts when I sit at my desk, to type. Which is, you know, my job. Back to the exercises, silly woman!
2. Seen "The Shape of Water," which I thought was close to a masterpiece. I read a very good piece on tor.com by Elsa Sjunneson-Henry, on why she was disappointed by it. She has some valid points to ponder, worth lowering my defensive "but ... but!"s and listening to. Still, I can't help it; I still think it's close to a masterpiece. Perhaps, had del Toro thought about some of the things that she brought up, it might have been even closer to one. Still ... close ....
3. Been put under even more pressure at work. It's painful to talk about, so I won't do it here. Just send me good vibes. I've been down about it, but I want to get up. 
4. Worried about BB. He is my rock, and my beloved, and I wish I could do so much more for him than I can. 
5. Made hotel reservations for FB's June wedding. Less than five months away ... it's still weird to me; I keep joking (not joking) about how he and Miss Em need to elope, dammit, but this is what she wants. And that's important. And now I have to think about weird-ass Middle American things like buying a mother-of-the-groom dress in the right color. Their wedding colors are teal and orange. Teal and orange. Sweet lord.
6. I found a copy of "Coastlines:The Poetry of Atlantic Canada" and ordered it. I bought a copy several years ago, and then lost track of my copy, and desperately wanted another. The two times I went back to Canada after buying my original copy resulted in fruitless searches. So off to Amazon I went, and I got it, and immediately turned to my favorite poems. And then FB told me today that he had my copy. Heh. 
7. Other things I shall probably remember when I am in bed. 


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Title: Hearts & Moons Recall the Truth
Author:
[personal profile] kaffyr
Chapter: 28
Previous Chapters: 27 here or here
Characters: The Ninth Doctor/Rose Tyler/Captain Jack Harkness
Rating: PG-13
Author's Note: In which even villains think they are patriots.
Edited by: the remarkable
[personal profile] editrx - thank you so much! And also by my beloved dr_whuh.
Disclaimer: As much as I wish it were otherwise, no Whoniverse character is mine. They are the sole property of the BBC and their respective creators. I take no coin or credit, but do thank the BBC for letting me play in its sandbox.
Note: Because this is a long chapter, Live Journal may eliminate paragraph breaks, so you might want to read on Dreamwidth.
Linguistic notes: at the end.



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Dept. of Birthdays

Happy Birthday [personal profile] canaan !

I have always been happy to have discovered your fic, and your original fiction. I've always been impressed with your grasp of humanity, and the dextrous way you put that grasp to excellent use in your writing. I've been even more impressed with your ability to do it while dealing with pain and exhaustion, and so much more. I hope your holidays had some peace and light in them; I hope your New Year's engendered hope, and helped keep up your determination. And just in general, I hope your birthday signals joy to come for you - real frakkin' fast - in 2018. 
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Dept. of Fandom Stocking

Fandom Stocking Gifts

I've been MIA ever since New Year's, what with work stress, a back that went out just before Christmas, and again a couple of days ago - yay, always so much fun - but perhaps I can get back on the horse. A lot of you are doing the Fandom Snowflake challenge, and I've given thought to trying that out; late, perhaps, but fun? Some of you have been doing other memes, and all of them make me want to respond to your posts. But spoons - oh, spoons, where have you gone? I have no brain with which to post or comment ....

I did have a lovely 
[community profile] fandom_stocking ; folks were very kind.  Here's where you can find everything in my stocking

From 
[personal profile] lost_spook , I got a beautiful little Sapphire and Steel (and Silver! Silver, FTW!) drabble; it played with light and dark in a way that pushes all my happy buttons. She always writes our favorite Elements so well!

[personal profile] maeve_of_winter  took note of my Stranger Things love, and gave me a story about Hopper and Billy that was emotionally right on the money. Hurrah!

[personal profile] marginaliana  gave me a sweet little forward rush of a ficlet, about Jack and River and Eleven - two of my favorite Whoniverse characters, and one of my favorite Doctors - that managed to make me want more of Jack and River's adventures. 

[personal profile] weaselett  wrote a fixit ficlet (say that three times fast) featuring Jack, Donna, and an off-stage Doctor who finally did the right thing. Yes, this is exactly what I needed. 

[personal profile] liadtbunny  made me Eleven/River icons, and they will very soon go into my rotation because I love them. 

Speaking of icons, 
[personal profile] nrgburst  satisfied my Black Widow love with some great gif icons (and she included Bruce, too, because Natasha/Bruce is close to my heart. More icons for rotation .... 

Jack and River featured again, in a lovely graphic from 
[personal profile] chamilet [personal profile] trobadora  added to my Jack haul, with a graphic from Boom Town, which was one of the episodes that nurtured my OT3. Jack/Rose/Nine, FTW!

[personal profile] twinsarein  brightened my stocking with one of her always sweet and sparkly holiday greetings. 

[personal profile] hamsterwoman  sent my stocking's cute factor rocketing up, thanks to her graphic of a Santa-hatted hamster. Yes, my voice went up several octaves into the "woman sees cute thing and squees about it" stratosphere. 

[personal profile] pipilj gave me a lovely New Year's gif, plus a recipe that not only provides me directions for a good soup, but gave me the directions to make the stock necessary for the soup. And it has things that I love in it, like lemon grass, garlic, and ginger. MMMmm ... I was gifted with another recipe, for Jamaican rice and beans, from [personal profile] rosefox , who also noted my love of jazz, and gave me a recommendation for a great Ellington album. Since Ellington is one of my favorite classic jazz giants, this was much appreciated. 

To all of you - thank you so much! Your gifts made my holiday season that much more wonderful, and I hope your own stockings were filled with similarly wonderful things. Happy 2018 to one and all!


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Dept. of Birthdays

She Jumps Off Cliffs and Flies, Even When She Hits the Ground

[personal profile] ljgeoff  is one of the most remarkable people I know. She is a writer, a nurse, a mother, an adventurer, someone who stands, looking at life, saying some much more feminist version of "Come At Me, Bro." And she wins more than she loses. 

She has patience; her capacity for hard work and almost endless empathy are awe-inspiring. She is unafraid - or if she is afraid, she manages to negotiate a truce with fear so that she can keep moving forward. 

I could not do what she does; I can't write the way she does; I can't work nearly as hard - but I can be grateful that I know her. 

And did I mention that she's beautiful, inside and out? I didn't? Bad me. 

Happy Birthday, my dear! May 2018 treat you as you deserve to be treated - gloriously. 


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Dept. of Mild Griping

Vacations and I Do Not Play Well Together. Not Even on Christmas

I mentioned to BB earlier tonight that I don't believe I've had a completely injury- or illness-free vacation in years. And, I said, it's got to be me at fault, not the vacations. (A bit like the nice boy who wonders why he picks so many mean girls who break up with him ... it's not them, buddy ....) 

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I am a very silly woman. Then again, I am a silly woman in pain, whose closest relationship over the last 36 hours, other than with her beloved, has been with her heating pad. 

Gah. 

But the Christmas tree still looks beautiful. And my collection of TARDIS ornaments now stands at two, thanks to FB and Miss Em, and that's wonderful. So, pain or not, today has not been a total loss. Also, I've learned a lot about narwhals For Reasons, and that's also cool.  
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Dept. of Baby It's Cold Outside

December Twenty Seventh

It is two days post Christmas and it is very, very cold here in Chicago.

But it's warm and colorful here at Casakaffyr. In the warmth and color - courtesy of the fattest. thickest Christmas tree I do believe we've ever had in our living room - with 150 very bright lights and many shiny ornaments and garlands. It gladdens my heart.

This is good, because other parts of me are less than glad. Unhappy mouth? Check. Back pain, thanks to moving an exceedingly heavy bookcase out of the dining room and building an equally heavy bookcase to go in its place? Oh boy howdy, check. Stomach pain because ... well, I don't know why; possibly too much butter and rich food? Indeed. Check, checkity-check.

Christmas dinner was had, eight guests were entertained. Gifts were gifted and received. (I'm so lucky to have family and friends who know my obsessions ... two more action figures for my mantelpiece, and more reading material.)

Still, it took two days to clean up, and both BB and I slept between 6 p.m. Dec. 26 and 11 a.m. Dec. 27. We're getting old
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Dept. of Holy Declarations

Christmas, Light, and Truth

It's Christmas. As always, the holiday brings forth in me an ambivalence.

I am no longer a Christian in my intellectual belief. I was, however, raised in one of the strains of Christianity that was both loving and intellectually open, in a loving and generous household, where my mother and grandmother were the most loving and generous of believers. As a result, it is hard for me to sing certain Christmas carols without a lump in my throat. Hard as well for that lump of tearful ... joy? Yes, joy ... not to form when I hear some of those New Testament verses, when I hear the story of a birth on a cold, dark night, of a young woman who held that child and loved it, of a man who didn't understand, but stood by them; of a radiance of angels singing to shepherds.

Why does that story make me cry? I think it' because, in the very wise words of my Best Beloved, it's a true story, even if it didn't happen, especially at this time of year.

The story of a loving Creator, who so loved this miserable world, and its miserable two-legged inhabitants - the Creator's miscreant, misanthropic, malevolent sons, daughters, children of all types - that He* broke Himself into pieces for love of us, and came to stay with us, in hopes of saving us from ourselves ... that's a love that passes my understanding.

Of course, Christmas is just the joyous announcement of salvation to come - but that joy is all encompassing.

Mind you, I know the story raises so many theosophical eyebrows. Do we really need to be saved, from ourselves or anything else?

I've abandoned the religious arguments; I'm pretty sure the only lake of fire into which we risk putting ourselves is whatever we might turn this globe into. I'm also pretty sure that any Creator vast enough to bring this universe into being is far, far beyond paying individual attention to us. Such a Creator is also undoubtedly not interested in sending us to hell for not worshiping Him.

(Avatars, demigods, little gods, and incarnations, yes: I've come to choose to believe in them, and I choose to believe they do love us.)

But you know, I think we do need to be saved from ourselves. We'll probably have to do it ourselves, and that's as  frightening as any religious hell.

For now, however ... this is the darkest part of the year.** And this story, stripped of the specific catechism of Christian belief has a deeper truth related to that.

In the darkness of the year, something in our souls cries out for life and warmth. We cry out for new life; we yearn for second chances. And the babe in the manger bring us life, warmth, and hope. So does the saint who has come to live in the darkness of the northern pole, who loves children and brings all of us children the light he generates even at the pole. We cry out for the miracle of the temple oil, we yearn for the sun to announce, at Solstice, that it is coming back to us.

I wish  for all of you, that light, that warmth and, above all, that hope. Because all these stories are true, even if they never happened.



* Forgive me my use of a gendered creator. He and I have had an ongoing relationship for decades. She may be different for you. They are god, are we not?

** The Southern Hemisphere is enjoying the warmth of summer, but all of my friends on that side of the world understand this message. Darkness comes in all forms.









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Dept. of Delayed Pimping

OK,So I Kind of Love The Silmarillion

I bought it shortly after it was published in 1977, because I was a repeat reader of the Lord of the Rings trilogy, and especially loved the appendices. (In fact, back in 1971 or so, I was in the process of writing Tolkien a letter about what I thought was an error in the appendices when I learned he had died. I'm so glad he died before I had a chance to embarrass myself like that, she said shallowly.)

When I first read the book, I was disappointed that it wasn't written in novel form, like LotR. Over the years, however, I found myself returning to it repeatedly, especially for the Ainulindale, the tale of initial creation. I also loved the Akkalabeth, the story of Numenor and its downfall, and I loved parts  of the Quenta Silmarillion, the stories of the first age and the Silmarils, although the stories of Turin Turambar and his family were too dark for me. 

Imagine my delight just last night, when something I was reading included a link to this: read it, all you fellow Tolkien lovers (and the many who are far more immersed in Tolkien scholarship and fandom than I am), and enjoy. 
[personal profile] camwyn  wrote it back in 2004, and it deserves to be re-discovered on a regular basis, because it is high and brilliant silliness. Also, it's a great way to understand the Silmarillion, while snorting in laughter. 

Wow, a post in which I can take delight in something - hurrah!
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Dept. of Pure Evil

So the Senate Passed  "Tax Reform" 

Evil. Mother. Fuckers. 


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Dept. of Hey! December!

In Which Visitors Come to Casa [personal profile] kaffyr 

I certainly remember all of you folks, and it's good to get back in the swing of things. I had so many things I thought I'd post about over the last couple of weeks (The Tragic Affair of the Squeaking Mouse being one of them), but I never got around to doing so. Perhaps I can get started again this month, which promises to be a busy one for me. 

At least one lovely thing that happened at the end of November was a very brief visit from two young online friends who I've known in 2D world since about 2006 or 2007, sisters mack_the_spoon and namarie24, who were in town to celebrate their birthdays with a viewing of the Chicago version of "Hamilton." It was far too short a visit, and as it came during a) my working week deadline day and b) a week in which union pressures were building - and was a necessarily short stay for them before they headed out to other cities - I did not get a real chance to sit and talk to them. Since they saw me in one of my more fluttery, worry-wartish modes, I am glad that they didn't simply back away slowly and find a motel somewhere. 

I also didn't really wish them Happy Birthday in the way I would have liked to, but now I can say I hope that these two intelligent, kind, observant, fannish, hardworking young women of faith have a wonderful year to come. 

And here's a photo (under a cut because it's a big picture) I snapped just before they headed off. I believe its Nam on the left and Mack on the left (but I'm sure they'll be here shortly to tell me that I got it wrong. Again. Heh.
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Dept. of Thanksgiving, Two Days Late

Thankfulness; the Basics and Beyond

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Dept. of Humanity

Transgender Day of Remembrance

The official day of remembrance, at least here in the U.S., is almost over. But that's OK. We need to remember - I need to remember - every day of the year. And more - I need to speak out against transgender violence, whether that's hate speech, emotional and legal violence, physical violence, or any other kind of deliberate, direct, indirect or unthinking marginalization and minimization. I need to do it even when it's uncomfortable for me to do it. Because my discomfort is pretty small compared to what these human beings, my brothers, sisters and siblings, deal with. 

These stories say more than I can


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Dept. of Hello, Hello

Things I've Done Since I Last Posted

  • Gone to see Thor: Ragnarok last night with BB. Laughed and enjoyed myself quite a bit. Chris Hemsworth has a light comic touch (and so does Cate Blanchett as the villain, which was a pleasant surprise,) the writing was witty and light, the plot held together rather well for a superhero movie, and of course there was plenty of Hiddleston/Loki and a very funny Ruffalo/Hulk. Light, colorful, and very few "Blow up the universe! Loudly!" scenes. A perfect movie to take one's mind off of ... well, 2017 in general.  
  • Dealt with another sick cat. Luckily, this is just a bad cold (both BB and I have experienced the delight of having Opie sneeze - wetly, and multiple times in one explosion - in our faces.)  We're giving him a med prescribed by the vet to keep him hungry, since he's lost some weight, at least partly because no one wants to eat when they have a cold. Luckily, he does eat the pill if it's in a pill pocket and then covered with mushy wet food. That's really good, because the one time we pilled him by hand, it was horrendous. He's big, and strong, and very squirrelly. 
  • (Cancer kitty is doing quite well. Apart from becoming too fond of wet food. No more dry food for him, apparently. Heh.) 
  • Done a little more on the final chapter of H&M. Losing hope of finishing it this year, but still working on it.  
  • Watched the 2006 BBC Jane Eyre. Toby Stephens is far too pretty as Rochester (I actually liked George C. Scott as a good Rochester), but hey, Toby Stephens is pretty, so it was fun to watch. Ruth Wilson was excellent as Jane. It made me drag out my copy of Jane Eyre to read. God, Victorian literature is bloody wordy - but Charlotte Bronte manages to keep the story going.  
  • Now I have to go and clean the place, because I have union folk coming over to do union stuff, and I don't want them to think I'm a slatternly housekeeper. 
 
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Dept. of ... Hell, I Don't Even Know

Can I Just Ask ... 

What the fuck is it about the toxic intersection of sex and power in this culture?

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Dept. of Tuesday

More Meanderings

I am now more than 1,400 words into the last chapter of Hearts & Moons. I may - just - complete the story within a decade!  I've figured out what has to happen, and I'm maneuvering into place for the final action. I just want the chapter to be no more than 5,000 words.

 I'm also starting to think about fandom_stocking, wondering if it will take place again this year. It's a huge thing for one person to wrangle, and I wouldn't be surprised if she decides not to take it on again this year, but I can hope. It's the one writing-a-thon event in which I take part, and even though I bitch and moan about how badly I'm doing at writing stocking stuffers or what-have-you, I love it.


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Dept. of Monday

November Start

I haven't been very active online since my last Phil-oriented post. That's a combination of inertia and real life combining to make posting incredibly difficult to assay. I'll try to be more present this month, if not altogether voluble.

Just a few things to say (although I'm going to try to start collecting thoughts as they occur, for later posting.) And I'm going to try to comment on other peoples' posts as well. I can't continue to say that much of my social life is online, if I don't actually participate in that social life.

I honestly can't remember if I mentioned that I went to see "Bladerunner 2049" or not, but I did, and I urge anyone who can, to head out and view it now, before it disappears from theaters. Its ticket sales sputtered at the beginning of its run, so the powers that be may well take it out of the theaters early. I think it's pretty close to a masterpiece from all angles - acting, directing, pacing, plotting, thematic strength, everything. The one thing I can find to nitpick is the sound track, and then only the volume.

I've been slowly watching "Stranger Things 2" and I'm just as engrossed with it as I was with its first season.


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And now I need to get to work, much as that is something I'd gladly avoid if I had the money to do so.

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Dept. of Phil

Kitty Update

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Dept. of More Birthdays

I've Let Myself Get Behind On Natal Greetings

Today, the birthday people are folks that haven't been around lately, or who I haven't had much contact with. It doesn't mean that I don't hope their birthdays were spectacular, however. 

Back on Oct. 23, redscharlach, a very talented fan artist and icon maker with an eye for the essential when it comes to comedic art, celebrated, and I hope it was a great celebration. 

The sweet and elusive 
[personal profile] cosmiccoz  celebrated on Oct. 24, and I hope they had a good birthday. They deserve all the good luck, good fortune, and good health that the world has seen fit to keep in short supply. May that change this year. 

Another Oct. 24 baby, 
[personal profile] lolmac , hasn't posted her grin-inducing MacGyver and Stargate lol pics and gifs for awhile, but I always think of them, and her, fondly. Happy Birthday to you!

Just yesterday, on Oct. 27, theladyoffaerie celebrated, or at least I hope she celebrated. I hope the birthday was full of warmth and friends. 
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Dept. of Bad News

Because Of Course This Would Happen

I got home from last night's meeting this morning at 2:30 a.m., where BB met me with the news that Dr. Wood, Phil's surgeon, had called in my absence. Not only had the tumor gone from "probably cancer" to "definitely cancer," the cancer had metastacized to his lymph nodes. She recommended chemo and radiation. 

We don't have the money. We spent what we could on his ear, after being assured that the tumor was generally localized and taking it out would probably prevent more cancer. I should have paid attention to the "generally" and the "probably," I guess. 

We'll call the oncologist to see if we can get even a rough estimate of expected lifespan. As long as he's not in pain, I don't want to do anything. But once that kicks in, we call the goodbye vet for her second visit to us in a year. 

Learning all of this at 2:30 a.m., and seeing how it affected BB was bad enough. Now I have to write a story from last night's meeting, and my brain is not working. I have a 3 p.m. deadline. I want to get it done before that because I want to crawl into a hole.
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Dept. of Beautiful, Beautiful Son

This Is My Son, In Whom I Am Well Pleased

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My son turned 33 on Friday. I told him I loved him, and I told him not to get crucified, because that's the kind of disrespectful lapsed Christian-type joke that he appreciates (and hence the title.) We both snickered. We're both probably going to hell. 

He is wonderful. He is talented, creative, gentle, empathetic, kind, handsome. He sings, he writes radio plays. He writes songs for pantos. He is hard working, loving, and fannish. Oh, so very fannish. 

(And yes, he's enraged and frustrated me over the years. What child hasn't done that to his or her mother?)

He is, quite simply, Andy. I love him, and I am so very lucky he is my son. 
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Dept.of I Forgot

To Owls

You, 
[personal profile] owlboy , are amazing. You are a polymath, a wild person, a writer, an artist, and someone who would be mad, bad, and dangerous to know, if you weren't not bad, and a delight to know. I'm glad I met you here on the Intarwebz, and here's to a very, very good year for you. And I hope your birthday was fantastic.   This entry was originally posted at https://kaffyr.dreamwidth.org/679231.html?mode=reply, where there are currently comment count unavailable comments. You can comment there or here, but prefer to read over on DW. You can comment there using open ID if you don't have a DW account.

Dept. of Truly Lovely People

Late In The Day Birthday Wishes

I am so very lucky to know all of you out there in journal land, and two of the people I am particularly happy to have met celebrated birthdays today. What with cat purgatory, that almost slipped by me. 

[personal profile] a_phoenixdragon  is an adventurer in life, taking on journeys, challenges, setbacks and battles that many people would find impossible to undertake or survive. She is also one of those remarkable humans who can find beauty and good in the tiny corners where many of us would forget to look for them. She is creative, funny, a lover of knowledge, a woman who fights for the people she loves, and somehow finds time to create; she has never let her muse too far out of her sight, even if there are times she thinks the creature has escaped. I am so lucky to have met her in RL, and can report that she is one of the sweetest people I've ever met. And she talks more than I do - which is so cool! My dear, I hope your loved ones showed you how much they love you, and gave you a very good birthday. And may the coming year be better than you could dream of!

[personal profile] editrx  is another adventurer who has dealt with challenge, setback, and the fuckwittery of the world with more bravery and determination than I could ever imagine. In the midst of all that, she's generous with her time. She's funny, fannish, extremely good at what she does, and if I were the kind of fairy godmother I wish I could be, I would wave a wand and make sure that this happy birthday wish was accompanied by more than friendship and respect. May the coming year be thrice as good as you want it to be!

But wait, there's more!

The remarkable 
[personal profile] elisi , who celebrates on Oct. 22, is someone for whom I have so much respect that it's impossible to truly describe it. She writes fiction and non-fiction, meta and life observations, while raising a family of remarkable young women, and staying in touch with the world with intelligence and grace. Thank you for being you, and thank you for broadening my world in so very many ways, all through your love of a madman with a box, one that's bigger on the inside. If I am ever on your side of the Atlantic, it would be my honor to take you out for a drink of whatever might be your pleasure. Until then? Continue being awesome, and have a fantastic birthday. 


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Dept. of Cat Purgatory.

The Good News Is...

Phil's home, and with both external ears. I am amazed at the lack of communication that can occur over the phone; I specifically heard the other doctor say the external ear had been removed, and I specifically asked about that - and was told yes, the ear was taken. Apparently "external ear" means different things to cat owners and vets. No matter: that's good. 

What's making this an awful, bad, no good day for everyone is the medication regimen. We're supposed to give him an antibiotic once every twelve hours, and two painkillers: gabapentin, again, once every 12 hours, and hydromorphone, once every 6-8 hours. 

Since we got him home yesterday afternoon, we've gotten one gabapentin dose in him, and one antibiotic dose, and, we think, one hydromorphone dose. He is horrible about opening his mouth, and literally twists himself upside down to avoid doing so. We're supposed to keep up this regimen every day for five days (the hydromorphone) and 10 days (the antibiotic). This may or may not happen. He's gotten so stressed; at one point, losing control of his bowels. Poor little guy. Jesus ....

Also? He has to wear the cone of shame for 10 days, except when we take it off him to let him eat, drink, and - ha - take his medicine. The poor guy is running into walls and everything else, we've had to take the top off the catbox because he can't get in with it on, and he definitely can't get up or down to places he normally wants to go. 

He slept on me for much of last night, after I lifted him to the bed. I didn't get much sleep, nor did BB. I called in sick today, although I'll try to get at least a couple of things done; if the hydromorphone we think we got into him 15 minutes ago takes hold and he sleeps again, I'm going to catch a few wink. 

It's like having a baby again. Except one with claws, some teeth, a lot of stress, and stitches. 

Gah.
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